Wednesday, November 7, 2007

Climbing the Wall

Thank you so much to everyone for commenting on my last post. I appreciate the words of encouragement, advice and validation. I'm doing okay today, even though my concerns still stand.

As for my weight loss, I saw my doctor yesterday who had done blood tests last week. There are some abnormalities with my red blood cells and my output of thyroid chemicals. He said that these things could cause tiredness and difference in metabolism and that without doing another blood test he couldn't rule out anemia. It is comforting to know that there may actually be a cause for the changes in my body, so I'm taking some supplements now and hope some areas will improve.

He also prescribed 1 hour of exercise a day, seven days a week, including yoga, pilates, and strength training to help manage my mood. I would love to be able to do this, and I'm trying to find a gym that will make it possible, but we don't have $140 extra dollars a month to fork out in Health Club fees (that's how much it costs to join the one my doctor suggested). I'll keep looking.

As far as the piano thing goes, I'm going to go ahead and do it. One commenter suggested that I've probably done it before and truthfully I have not. I have sung many times in front of many congregations, and I also lead our church choir. I think there were church members who kind of assumed that since I could do those things I probably played the piano well. Whatever the case, I told them from the beginning what my abilities were and they have been supportive. Even though I'd like to accompany the kids flawlessly, I'm learning to accept that it will be what it will be and I'll do well enough. It's just a little nerve wracking.

As for NaNoWriMo, I will push on. Truth be told I haven't even reached the part of the story where anything exciting happens, so I'm just going to start writing that part. I really wanted to write it chronologically, which is why there are so many bad parts because I was just putting stuff down trying to get my main character into position for the exciting things to happen. I will be able to rewrite much of what I have already written later and condense it considerably. If it has accomplished anything, it has served to flesh out background details in my own mind. Thank you, blog friends, for letting me know it is appropriate to be frustrated and that writing a novel really is hard. It helps me not feel like such a wuss.

I read each of your comments several times and cannot tell you how much your words mean to me. They have helped me achieve perspective and to feel valued.

I even had a big long talk with my husband and he seems much more supportive now.

Love to all. Thank you.

9 comments:

SzélsőFa said...

If you have sorted out all these with your husband that is the best thing to start with! to have a supportive background is very important!
Re: gyms are expensive:
why not get some DVDs and do the exercise at home alone? That is just as much fun. without onlookers and smelly shared dressing rooms.

Church Lady said...

I joined the Sierra Club last summer, and have been able to get a few hikes in. I wanted to do some kind of exercise where I didn't need to worry about daycare. I don't know if that's an issue for you or not, but just wanted to put that idea out there.

I think hormones have a lot to do with who we are. I'm glad you're getting yours checked and you're taking steps to better your health. I need to get mine checked too. I've gained too much weight for it to be 'just getting older.' And I'm a lot moodier. It's not fun, and I understand some of what you're saying. Also, if Nano is at a bad time for you, make your own up, and do it when it fits *your* schedule.

Talking to DH (who sounds supportive) is a great step toward developing a healing attitude about yourself.

(insert group hug)
:-)

Vesper said...

And lots of love to you, Hoodie! Best of luck in anything you want to do! :-)

SzélsőFa said...

Hoodie, you are kindly invited to take part on my 'take a closer look' contest, this one is the 10th, the last one.

Beth said...

I just read the below post for the first time and gosh, I wish I had read it when it was written. I so identify with so much of what you wrote, but not the piano thing.

I exercise at home and I recommend it. Did you know more than 80% of gym memberships go unused? This is why you have to pay ahead. You can buy some hand weights and do it right in the privacy of your own home. I'm rather a fitness guru, albeit a chunky one, so I could help you develop a program, if you'd like.

Also, I also have medical problems with my weight, which can't be helped by modern medicine. It sucks knowing there's a reason for it and how hard it'll be for me to lose weight and keep it off, but it makes me feel vindicated.

Anyhow, my husband is not a support system for me. I get that so much. If you want a workout buddy, say the word, we can e-mail each other daily or something. As for the writing, I think you're very good at it and I hope you always continue.

SzélsőFa said...

I'm joining Beth in this do it yourself at home type of exercise.

(I, fortunately have no hormone issues, so I can't relate to that.)

The Quoibler said...

Beth:

I'm glad that all this crud is sorting itself out! Happy Days are Here Again...!

(Don't you just want to cyber-smack me for a silly reference like that?)

Angelique

Beth said...

Heck, no! You always make me chuckle, Angelique, but yes, I am glad the crud is getting sorted out. =)

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